Teach Me Your Will

My life is nothing without my being in Your hands.

I've learned that. 

Albeit, it was long and unsatisfying. 

Wondering aimlessly, trying to figure out if what fits the world, also fits me. 

But, it wasn't one-size-fits-all. 

Or, maybe I was the one the world should not be trying to squeeze into

I didn't feel snug to following its ways. 

My sleeves were too long for its consistency to never fill me with what I needed. 

I'm happy I found you. 

I'm happy that You loved me more than anyone should when I am a mess. 

I don't have anything worthy enough to repay you. 

My life is negotiable, but is it really enough?

Perhaps, we can work out a contract?

One that is life-binding, if you will. 

Because I feel like committing myself entirely to You will help me pay my debt.

(Somewhat, never entirely).

Maybe follow you, become your muser perse.

Teach me Your ways, Your will, if that's too much to ask. 

Let me intern in Your kingdom, do what you say and all of that jazz. 

And something tells me that doing this is going to be the best decision of my life.

That even though you're big-huge really, 

My presence will still never be overlooked by You. 

That I'll find my place in You way more fitting than ever. 

Snug. Just right. 

That I'll probably not repay you as much as I want to because You will still find a way to outshine my debt. 

But, teach me. 

Teach me to follow Your guidelines. 

Your procedures. 

You. 

Tell me about You?

~J&M Remedies