TheRay's Destiny

  I am Not Strong.  I had this rude awakening the other morning.  If you are new to this blog, then you may not know this, but I sometimes struggle mentally-strength wise.  So, this blog is just not to assist, encourage and inspire you but it is also a great help to me. I called this stagnant in my mental health a seasonal thing. Meaning that it regularly tries to come and overcome me, but I must admit that lately, I am getting a bit wiser and stronger to its attacks. And before I move on, seasonal depression is something that should not be taken lightly.  You shouldn't accept it, just because it happens. Fight it until it is gone! Anyway, so my little unwanted friend visits, and I always hate it.  When people battle with these experiences it doesn't mean everything in our lives is necessarily bad or discouraging. It is more so to do with us and what we are allowing the enemy to get over on us.  This is why I hate it.  Because, why am I still goin...

Photo by Nick Fewings on Unsplash  If these walls can talk it would say that it was their umpteenth time here again.  On their knees, tears flowed from their eyes trying to call out to whoever was their friend.  It would say how they paced the floors and mumble things unable to understand.  It would say how they watch them unfold and fold, barely able to stand.   If these walls can talk, it would say how they see them turned dark.  Watching beyond the sheetrock as they slice leaving redlines as their mark It would say that they saw them cursed, it saw them call down everything they can think of It would say how they were silent and a shell of themselves, absolutely nothing left. No love. If these walls can talk, it would tell them that they had tried everything but the One He sits high and looks down low, His blinks control the sun.  It would tell them that if they try His system then it won't hurt as much It would tell them that He would love them be...

  This is a heavy topic and I hit on this a while back before. (Trauma-Spoken Word) However, I want to circle back on it and open the floor for us to have a discussion on it.  Most of us, if not all of us have gone through something in our childhood, teenage, or young adulthood lives that have either have us tip-toeing into our future or barreling towards it with no awareness.  Trauma is something that I don't take lightly because I believe that it is something that can literally change the way a person thinks and act, therefore changing their course of life.  Most time, especially in the black community, trauma can go untreated.  It won't be talked about. It won't be treated.  It won't even be identified.  However, the way we would act and think and go about in our daily lives would display the reactions of what we have gone through in our past.  Facing what we have been through before is harsh and very much painful.  You're going to find yo...

  Psalm 103:8 "The Lord is compassionate and gracious, slow to anger and abounding in love" I often have moments in my life where I am scared that one day I'll finally lose my mind.  Mind battles are not a one-and-done situation, I've learned that.  It is a continued battle that tests your strength and willpower.  Because of this, I have sometimes pulled away, depressed, confused, and even guilt-stricken because why can I not get it together.  Sometimes, the voice in my head gets a bit louder than me. At first, it was the loudest but by God's help and my constant fight it is not anymore. However, there are times when it gets louder and I hear: "You aren't good enough"  "You always fail"  "Why do you even try"  "You're not even going anywhere"  I'm being very candid with you today in hopes that I am helping you who are reading this.  It's a moment in the heat of the battle of my mind. Just a second or a minute...

Photo by Jaime Spaniol on Unsplash   My battleground has no blood on its ground. It doesn't have the G.I Joes,  There are no military weapons to be found. There are no barbwires, there's no warning alarms. There's nothing to state its a battlefield,  But yet, when I am there, I'm still harmed.  I have done everything on its soil.  I've waved my flag in surrender, I've fought mercilessly.  I've hidden in the shadows from the turmoil I've asked for peace, but its a tough bargain Please just arrest my thoughts, silence the shouts I just want to hear myself again I sought to recruit, to have assistance in this war of me vs me I heard that He can calm the storm. And in the midst of the chaos, put a balm in Gilead. He's a victor, an expert in the art of war He's never lost one battle, all medals in His name. He doesn't seek to even the plain, He dismantles the score. He takes thoughts captive and completely demolishes arguments and pretensions He ...

  In today's world, there are so many things that run through our minds that can leave us depressed and just completely out of it.  This, in turn, causes difficulties with us wanting to get out of bed and going through another day.  I know  I have NOT been the only one who at some point in life finds it so hard to get out of bed. I'm sure I am not the only one who has laid in their bed and said "What's the point?"  Obviously, I have found some kind of remedy to this madness.  The trick for me is thinking about my family, my purpose, and my reason for being here.  I know there is still more for me to accomplish, so I try my hardest to push through that fog.  Tell me, what's your antidote on those days of immobility.  Those days when your heart and mind have held hands and decided to not continue? What still makes you swing one foot out of the bed? What makes you get up? Leave comments below! Let's talk!

 Tyler Perry (never thought I would be quoting him), but he said that, and in my way, "Don't marry someone until you have seen them in all seasons".  Why? Because people tend to change. They evolve.  Layers of them are covered in some seasons and times in their lives and then some layers are removed to uncover another part of them in the next season.  The thing about this is, that it doesn't only apply to getting to know someone else, but to ourselves as well. The person that we are most and forever committed to is ourselves. The core of us might not change, because there are some things that will always remain the same. It will always be our key traits, but as we continue to grow and mature in life, we're going to find ourselves shedding layers that we have kept wrapped up in for quite some time. Who we were as a teenager is not who we are as an adult. Who we were as single, we're different as married.  Who we were as childless, we will be different as a pare...