Get Rid of The Mold

 Leviticus 14:39-40

"On the seventh day, the priest shall return to inspect the house. If the mold has spread on the walls, he is to order that the contaminated stones be torn out and thrown into an unclean place outside of the town."

In today's scripture context, it is referring to the defiling of molds in fabric and homes. I noticed while studying this scripture that it later referred to mold as depression in the 30th verse. 

There are many things out there in the world that are causing death and hardship, but there is a silent killer that has been lurking for a long time undetected. 

It's amazing that mold and depression are interchangeable here because although they don't affect the same things, their actions mimic the other. 

Similar to mold, depression doesn't show or rear its ugly head until it's too late. 

Let's look at old bread, you won't see mold on it as yet, but if you smell it you can catch the scent of moldiness.  

I battled with depression for a long time. 

At first, it was just the negative thoughts (which I thought nothing much of). I just assume that it was just who I am. Plus, it was my thoughts, no one knew them, but me. Then it trickled into my way of life.

The desire to not get out of bed, the fear of socializing, the lack of effort in my appearance were some of the symptoms. 

Spore by spore, it grew. 

Soon it affected my health because I didn't want to eat or rather controlled my appetite, it took advantage of my mental health until I became suicidal and it zapped my energy because of the constant negative thoughts. 

I was unhealthy spiritually and physically.

As you continue to read the scripture, I like that it shows you the different methods and times the priest and others try to get rid of the mold. 

The first time they tried seeing if it will just pass over. That in time it will wither away. Second, they tried scraping the house, the other was removing the stones and replacing them. Lastly, they tried breaking down the house completely. 

Different methods. Different tries. Different takes. 

Because truthfully getting rid of depression is going to take many different methods and many different tries. 

I had tried reading to get my thoughts out of the dark places it normally would be in. I tried exercising, writing, yoga, and anything that would make me too busy to think too much of how messed up I often felt. 

I even tried embracing it, in hopes that my courage to face it will make it go away. 

I tried many different methods, but I think my best method ever was God. 

I know some people have an issue when people tell you to pray when you're battling depression, but I found it to be my best decision ever. 

Maybe it was because I didn't go all formal and pretentious when I finally lay my problems to Him. 

Instead, I went and told Him exactly how I felt and what I was feeling. 

I told Him, I wanted to die and I did not see the reason to live anymore. I told Him my hate for myself and how I hurt myself because I felt like it would make me feel better or even worse. 

I told Him that my mind was messed up and the dark thoughts I have. 

In some cases, I just cried out to Him. In others, I was silent. In other times, I wrote my dark feelings and burned them and in other times I spoke to Him as if He was a friend lending a listening ear. 

Even though He came to me the first time I attempt to end my life, my depression didn't up and disappear. Just like in the scripture, there were different methods and times in order to fully rid yourself of the mold. 

Depression is definitely a cycle that one must work hard and intentionally to break. 

You can't assume it would just get rid of itself or it will pass over. You must target it and work on healing yourself.

And truthfully, the best way to intentionally fight against depression is by God's Word. 

When He showed up to me when I needed Him the most, He presented His Word. 

He told me that I was fearfully and wonderfully made. (Psalm 139:14). He told me that He has purposely created me. ( Jeremiah 1: 5). He reminded me that He will not let any harm come near me ( Psalm 91:10) and that He cares for me ( 1 Peter 5: 7). 

If you are battling depression, I implore you to please try God. 

Try the different methods with Him. 

Try listening to gospel/Godly songs. Try talking to Him. Writing to Him. Reading about Him (His Word). Change your environment. Try meditating on Him, or just sitting in silence with Him. 

Try the different methods until one stick. 

Try crying, try groaning, try getting saved or born again for real. Try getting baptized. Try praying. Try fasting. 

Try until you find the method that helps break the cycle of your mold from reoccurring in your life. 

~TheRay